Virtuous
Paedophiles
Confessions of a virtuous paedophile
There are over 2,000 members of the Virtuous Paedophiles support group, many of whom are paedophiles themselves. This is a collection of confessions, thoughts and feelings from anonymous users.
"When I was in my late teens I found myself attracted to young teens. I went searching the web for help for those with paedophilia. I only found websites that promoted adult-child sex or that treated all paedophiles as criminals. This very much bothered me. Because of that I was very ashamed of my attraction and at times would become depressed overs the years and almost suicidal."
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" I've been living with a sexual attraction to young boys anywhere from 8yo - 15yo, and while the desire to have something you can't is painful and often very lonely I have never touched a boy and I honestly never will. I have complete control over my actions that is not my problem. Nothing I do can stop how I feel, not church or religion. I've tried dating both women and men and it never lasts. I don't feel the way for them that I do for boys. I'm 26 and I have felt this way since I was 14, and I now know that there is no one for me and no hope to ever be anything but lonely. I'm having a hard time finding reasons to go on living honestly. The only thing keeping me from suicide is knowing my family and friends would be devastated. Living a loveless and lonely life hardly seems worth it, even if it means causing the ones you love pain by leaving them. Then I also wonder how many would still care if they knew how I felt about boys. I want to join to talk to people like me and see how they do it. It also helps to know you're not alone. "
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"I am a young adult who has struggled with an attraction to young girls since I hit puberty. I was and still am quite socially awkward and have a lot of anxiety and still have never had a romantic or sexual relationship. I would never even consider pursuing a romantic or sexual relationship with an underage girl, even though I admit that it's hard to come to terms with the fact that I'll never be able to experience that... I have gone through phases of depression and am in a particularly down mood right now and could use someone to talk to."
"I am 21, almost 22, and "this" has been something that I have struggled with for as long as I can remember. I've done everything I can to try and understand it, but I don't know why I have these affections. I've spent a lot of time working on accepting myself as a human and not just by my struggle, but sometimes it's hard. A lot of the time it's hard. At present, I feel confident in my ability to control things, but I worry what trying to do it on my own will do for me in the long run."
"I am one of those rare female paedophiles ... I'm very interested in spreading the idea that paedophiles are not evil and I firmly believe that society has wrongly demonized a group of people based on the actions of a minority within them. However, this is difficult because I do not wish to reveal that I am a paedophile. I just want to help stop discrimination."
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"I am 22 years old and I am scared. I have never harmed a child but have constant thoughts about young boys. I am openly gay in my community and I want to know if I will be able to lead a normal life. Please help."
"For so many years I had just accepted that there was no way I would ever be able to share this with anyone. My wife knows, sort of, but this secret has been eating away at me for 40 years now. I have never hurt a child and it would be wonderful to join a group of similar-minded men."